Girl where you at? Your mask is slipping….
They can see the cracks, girl you tripping
Wake up, The facade, it’s Slipping!
Panic, Freeze,
Bended Knees!
Silence…..
“Let me in let me in” – the knocks are coming
Give me sec, catch my breathe. I’m coming
Lights. Camera. Action. Yes, come in
Smile, Pose, Laugh, Joke
We Good. No worries
Power On.
Activate Mode: I’m Okay.
Behind every smile, hides a truth
Behind every “I’m fine” holds a lie
Behind every strength, is a struggle
Behind the void stares, are unshed tears
Behind every success, mountains of failure
Behind every person, there’s a shadow
Our ability to hide is like second nature
Surrounded but so alone
Supported but feeling cold
Smiling, yet emotionally unstable
I am Happy…..
(don’t let me see otherwise)
I smile…..
(don’t let them see otherwise)
You can’t cry, you’re too blessed to act problematic
(dry your eyes)
Smile
How did I get here?
Just sick from standing here
Wishing i could be anywhere but here
Waiting to be able to move and get there
To the other side where I can breathe
Behave, relax, maybe sleep and read
It’s funny how the person who destroys you is always the first to shout “you’ve changed” right
As if the human mentality was to remain the same at all times, despite
Being verbally, emotionally and physically attacked
Walking around with a chip on my back
As if everything is fine
I’ll take it, It’s fine
She’s old enough, it’s fine
She’s strong enough, it’s fine
They say women are strong beings, sure that’s true
But I don’t think everyone could survive you
Doing it for years, this was meant to happen
Was hoping to find my sanity before you saw it happen
Because it would be above you for you to actually realize
That you played a massive part in my demise
But it’s fine
As always, it’s fine
Judge me, point fingers, that’s fine
Because I gave you the ability to do so, so it’s fine.
I pray one day….. I’ll actually be….. fine
Did you know I came back for you?
That after agonizing, I chose you?
I chose to Love when we both knew
That nothing could be more true
Than the fact that there can never be me with you
Her Back against the wall,
She’d pushed as much as she could
Fought a hard battle
She did more that others would
Weight on her shoulder
She embraced it all with a smile
Superhero to most
She lived her life in denial
The critics attacked
She struggled but she stood
The words lashed at her
But she looked for what’s good
She saw the positive in life
As life battered out the good
Her music was the screams that engulfed her existence
Her art was the blood from scars that numbed common sense
I asked: What made her so strong to the harshness of the world?
Fearlessness? Or just her desire to survive?
With twinkle in her eyes
A smile on her lips
“Being to hell and back and still being able to say I survived”
Dedicated to the Strength of a Woman who knows true hardship
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Soar
They will know you
Soar high
They will remember you
Your name will forever be etched
Your spirit will forever be felt
You, the incredible Son
You, the amazing brother
You, a friend among friends
Our hearts are heavy
For you’ve touched us all
Saying goodbye to a bright flame
Saying goodbye to a young soul
Saying goodbye to family
Soar high
And find peace
As we calm our hearts
Find peace in knowing you were loved
Find peace in knowing you are missed
Sour high
My friend, family, brother
You are forever in my heart.
How do I stop loving him
When we didn’t have a fight?
When all he did was leave
When leaving me was right?
How do I stop loving him
When I don’t hate him?
When all he did was support me
When I turned my back on him?
How do I stop loving him
Though I really need to try
Because we are two different people
Who can never see eye to eye
And I know we said goodbye
And I wasn’t sad enough to cry
Every blue moon I realize
Stop loving him was just lies………..
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